Conversion

Hovering over my dead body

I see you dancing to no tune

What death means to you

I could never think

You stare into my eyes

I have no expression to return

This stoppage pains me

I wish to float with you

Just like a lie can cut

I lie here so open

Without nothing to stop you

I am your poor minion

An empty space on this floor

I am no drug for you

Will you ever feel me once

I doubt this only dream

Yet you turned me into this

I just don’t see why this you’d do

Surrender to Hell

On this pedestal of death I stand

Searching for my end

No fear now left to live

The end is now my friend

I close my eyes and whisper

To the depths of highest orders

Smite me down you now must

Turn these muscles and bones to fodder

My eyes dried up off tears

Blood now it starts to weep

Not fear or pain the cause

Just something inside deep

How did I end up here

To what I owe this grief

To answer an eternity is less

The questions although so brief

I whisper once again

Hear me Oh’ lord of silence

Take me now your captive

Your prison my ultimate penance

…And finally I open my eyes

There he stands a mighty knight

Not different from what I’d dreamt

Yet such a strange sight

Kneel in front now I must

A warrior’s end I seek

He hasn’t moved an inch

Yet suddenly so far and bleak

Oh but what a fool I’ve been

The devil is a crooked player

My surrender brands me a coward

No longer he’ll heed my prayer

My existence ends up a waste

A lifelong struggle thrown away

I fought for hell so long

Now drown in heaven’s bay.

Literature

Writing is not about framing words, rather stringing thoughts you can't say in verbal

Retirement

This will be my one last fight

And then I’m gonna be history

I’ll try to reach all those heights

And then there is no victory

I will testify my greatness and might

And free from expectations I will be

Into the pie of victory I will bite

And then from a distance I’ll see

The torch of my rule I will light

And then in another hand it will be

All darkness I will turn bright

And then to pay I have no fee

I will chase away all my frights

And then scared no longer I will be

All loosen bonds I will now tight

And then away I will be

Just let me win my one last fight

And then from this life I will flee.

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I lay in the darkness

Waiting for the end

Praying to my lost god

Don’t help me one more time

I look to the skies, the oblivion high

The sun as usual shining bright

It’s like a mocking sign put up

To ridicule my miserable life

Always for the end I craved

Wished to die sooner than later

Now I hear my doom approaching

I reconsider, my thoughts I clear

Kill God

The angels hunt me down

Demons track my soul

Hiding in this human town

I remember my life’s one goal

A creation of the enlightened darkness

I had defied my own masters

For me no one was his highness

My mission was to be a martyr

My master’s hunter, the gothic angels

Are nearby, I sense them

My former army, now a stranger

If only I could save some of them

The devil is now the commander

And god himself the knight

Of this alliance I am the binder

But if only they could see the right

The pretty demons the hideous priests

Fire at me, at their will and accord

But I don’t care ‘bout these beasts

Good or bad, I’ll kill God

Disgrace

Lost beyond these words

I see what you won’t believe

A mind disfigured by grim

It is evil yet serene

For society an existence ceased

People can be so cruel

Trekking on this treacherous sheath

In winds of poisonous tears

An adolescence lost to pain

A teenage that wasn’t there

This age old misery reminiscent

Of why this life is a failure

The uncoloured part of a rainbow

A pilot drowning in depths

Some words better left unsaid

This sarcasm of god bitter

Like the blank page of a diary

A pretty face scarred and burnt

Some roots don’t grow any trees

They only rot in dirt

Playing this tune devoid of rhythm

Beating doors with broken hands

Screaming pathetic to myself

I break down and succumb to fear