Retirement

This will be my one last fight

And then I’m gonna be history

I’ll try to reach all those heights

And then there is no victory

I will testify my greatness and might

And free from expectations I will be

Into the pie of victory I will bite

And then from a distance I’ll see

The torch of my rule I will light

And then in another hand it will be

All darkness I will turn bright

And then to pay I have no fee

I will chase away all my frights

And then scared no longer I will be

All loosen bonds I will now tight

And then away I will be

Just let me win my one last fight

And then from this life I will flee.

Kill God

The angels hunt me down

Demons track my soul

Hiding in this human town

I remember my life’s one goal

A creation of the enlightened darkness

I had defied my own masters

For me no one was his highness

My mission was to be a martyr

My master’s hunter, the gothic angels

Are nearby, I sense them

My former army, now a stranger

If only I could save some of them

The devil is now the commander

And god himself the knight

Of this alliance I am the binder

But if only they could see the right

The pretty demons the hideous priests

Fire at me, at their will and accord

But I don’t care ‘bout these beasts

Good or bad, I’ll kill God

Disgrace

Lost beyond these words

I see what you won’t believe

A mind disfigured by grim

It is evil yet serene

For society an existence ceased

People can be so cruel

Trekking on this treacherous sheath

In winds of poisonous tears

An adolescence lost to pain

A teenage that wasn’t there

This age old misery reminiscent

Of why this life is a failure

The uncoloured part of a rainbow

A pilot drowning in depths

Some words better left unsaid

This sarcasm of god bitter

Like the blank page of a diary

A pretty face scarred and burnt

Some roots don’t grow any trees

They only rot in dirt

Playing this tune devoid of rhythm

Beating doors with broken hands

Screaming pathetic to myself

I break down and succumb to fear

My Nights...

I’ve spent nights

Dreaming of you

Thinking of you

How I would touch you

How I would feel you

I’ve spent nights

Speaking of you

Hearing of you

How I would see you

How I would like you

I’ve spent nights

Yearning for you

Crying for you

How I would love you

How I would please you

But now that I have you

I have no nights left.

Queen of the Dammed

Lately i've been forced to sing

To hum the tunes of unholy repel

Bound by this sickened ring

My misery to no one i tell

Bound in this marriage of doom

My husband feeds on my wounds

With a demon i share this room

And wait for eternity to be fumed

Our minister was not a ghost

Rather the worshipper of such a spirit

To the dead we made a toast

So much of blood spilled, so explicit 

Our honeymoon in the valleys of hell

The celebration was evil and sad

Falling into this infinite well

My lover no longer that lovely lad

But all this pain n suffering that i fought

The bigger goal in my mind was scanned

My husband i killed with a single gun shot

N became the fcukin queen of the dammed

BEFORE RESTING

This pain in me that burns

this fire that rocks my soul

I want to kill you my foe

and rule this world once more

You stole all that i ever loved

you took all i had earned

my life now without a purpose

I go on to live in remorse

Had relied on you with my life

had lent you all that i could

but you stabbed me in my heart

and left me to cry every morrow

Now to kill you only i breathe

I'll choke you out of your life

and with ur head at my side

I'll go to the eternal resting high...

My Name

The lords of destiny

Engrave my name

The slaves of misery

Pray my name

The pearls of beauty

Desire my name

The demons of fury

Salute my name

The experts of monetary

Use my name

The children of happy

Chant my name

The followers of godly

Bear my name

But only if they would hurry

Or i'll change my name

Demon's Love

On the way to heaven she lives

I see her playing with the doves

The essence that soul does give

Makes even demons believe in love

Her gentle sight spots me and flutters

Leaves me spell bound and dreamy

I love ya i want to stutter

Please love and set me free

She perhaps has the look of appraisal

But am not sure am her type

Nash, nfs. Zlot or kezal

Compared to her none is enough ripe

All that i like is stuffed in her

She has so much meaning to me

I see her n my soul shakes and stir

So easily she voows me..

Not sure i can win her heart

We're not in the same love league

Even though of heart she's a part

Chances of her liking me are bleak

The over-lord nfs has fallen

No longer i have any control

The word weaver has been maulen

Perhaps alone i'll again stroll

The Sinner

One says it is prison

One says it is home

Not sure whom to listen

I shut myself alone

This confinement of mine peculiar

Like a double edged sword

One side to wound my enemy

The other on my throat

Just look at it and tell

You may have a different opinion

For its only human to differ

And see different views

I agree I cannot leave

But my arrival wasn’t forced

I chose here to stay

Without any hesitation

This room of four walls

Without any light breeding window

I lie on the floor and gaze

On the scratches at the ceiling above

These marks that clawed this cement

They send down my spine shivers

The cold floor spikes me

Its pain I have to bear

For Lord I have sinned

And fed on the blood of my dears

I’ve slain people for pleasure

Taken lives just to amuse

I am no mythological creature

Just another ruined power craving human