Satisfaction

Was it you?

Was it you?

The one I needed?

The one I wanted?

The one I….

The dying moments of our love

Of this escapade

This poetry

That we created

This music

That we shouted

This writing

That we painted

Those dying moments

Showed me and you

Us…

Us…

The discarded petals

Of a fallen flower

The wasted drops

Of a vintage liquor

The trashed floor

Of a forgotten temple

It showed me

Showed us

Why were wrong

Why this was wrong

You were not my need

But a luxury

Not a desire

But a dream

For the moment I loved you

Was the moment my love died

And I stand here satisfied

But hollow on the inside.

Shame

Oh heaven you may fall

Into the pits of hell

But my sin would still be greater

Deeper than the oceans heart

Just look into my folly

And then you will feel

This disgrace I have earned

For eternity now my curse

Angels on this day will cry

The idols of god will bleed

For a future sun has fallen

Perhaps never to return again

The realm of my illusion

Today finally cut open

I see my meagre affinity

Towards the cosmic hub

I see now these black birds

To mock my soul they come

And howling my mistake out loud

In this infinite suffering am shut

My head bleeds out of ache

The beating of my heart abrupt

For I cannot bear this failure

It only cuts me up

Nothing will ever ease

This is forever going to last

A lesson very painful to learn

Makes my eyes red and numb

Retirement

This will be my one last fight

And then I’m gonna be history

I’ll try to reach all those heights

And then there is no victory

I will testify my greatness and might

And free from expectations I will be

Into the pie of victory I will bite

And then from a distance I’ll see

The torch of my rule I will light

And then in another hand it will be

All darkness I will turn bright

And then to pay I have no fee

I will chase away all my frights

And then scared no longer I will be

All loosen bonds I will now tight

And then away I will be

Just let me win my one last fight

And then from this life I will flee.

Kill God

The angels hunt me down

Demons track my soul

Hiding in this human town

I remember my life’s one goal

A creation of the enlightened darkness

I had defied my own masters

For me no one was his highness

My mission was to be a martyr

My master’s hunter, the gothic angels

Are nearby, I sense them

My former army, now a stranger

If only I could save some of them

The devil is now the commander

And god himself the knight

Of this alliance I am the binder

But if only they could see the right

The pretty demons the hideous priests

Fire at me, at their will and accord

But I don’t care ‘bout these beasts

Good or bad, I’ll kill God

The Dream of Love

In this dream that I saw

Me and you together

Singing in the rain

Under the cloud cover

Not marred by the cold

But enjoying our warmth

Feeling the numbness

Shearing the pleasure

Holding our both hands

Looking in to your eyes

Searching for your gaze

Yet blankness I discover

Looking straight through me

Undermining my existence

Like a brute odd force

Separating our relation

Oh then do I realize

That it is not true

For in reality

Through me straight you won’t look

This is just a nightmare

A cold play memories me, fool

For in real, you are dead

Never to be in vision

My Nights...

I’ve spent nights

Dreaming of you

Thinking of you

How I would touch you

How I would feel you

I’ve spent nights

Speaking of you

Hearing of you

How I would see you

How I would like you

I’ve spent nights

Yearning for you

Crying for you

How I would love you

How I would please you

But now that I have you

I have no nights left.

Eyes of Doom

 What is this infinite depth

You conceal beneath these eyes

Of what mystery they lead the way

That someone would like to hide

Your lashes like pointing spears

Threatening if for long I stare

But still your eyes so tempting

The risk has its worth to take

Of what do they seem like a gateway

An entrance only few can make

The treasure that behind them lays

Must be worth any life one can take

Your vision ever changing

Glancing all around for your prey

Inviting with your deep dark eyes

Calling with that endless stare

One says he saw in them heaven

Another claims they reach to the moon

Different people claim different sights

None of them to the truth near

For in your eyes, you’re not hiding

It’s something that you’ve locked

Your eyes of doom

Your eyes are doom.

Queen of the Dammed

Lately i've been forced to sing

To hum the tunes of unholy repel

Bound by this sickened ring

My misery to no one i tell

Bound in this marriage of doom

My husband feeds on my wounds

With a demon i share this room

And wait for eternity to be fumed

Our minister was not a ghost

Rather the worshipper of such a spirit

To the dead we made a toast

So much of blood spilled, so explicit 

Our honeymoon in the valleys of hell

The celebration was evil and sad

Falling into this infinite well

My lover no longer that lovely lad

But all this pain n suffering that i fought

The bigger goal in my mind was scanned

My husband i killed with a single gun shot

N became the fcukin queen of the dammed

BEFORE RESTING

This pain in me that burns

this fire that rocks my soul

I want to kill you my foe

and rule this world once more

You stole all that i ever loved

you took all i had earned

my life now without a purpose

I go on to live in remorse

Had relied on you with my life

had lent you all that i could

but you stabbed me in my heart

and left me to cry every morrow

Now to kill you only i breathe

I'll choke you out of your life

and with ur head at my side

I'll go to the eternal resting high...

The Black Dove

she lay on the muddy side

pearls set to drop from her eyes

in her vicinity the others strayed

not bothering to wipe away the pain

perhaps she really is an outcast

not worthy of their clan

her color to all's dismay

was the darkest part of black

her beady eyes stay lost

no hope of help now pesters

a dark gloom is what's at bay

with every breath nearing closer

she sits there deathly still

calmer than the heart of doom, if it is

for she no longer cares

how her end comes after this

the sun grows black today

all light covered by a dark disc

the clan thinks the outcast is evil, pray

they don't know whats coming their way

for the darkened day makes the black one shine

she can feel the power in her veins

her stone eyes look now yellow

her brightness in now so clear

she spreads her wings so huge

like a swodsman heaving his weapon

the sparkle from her blinding

the black queen's mind now clearer.

Loving a vampire

With a heavy heart I shut this door

An only opening for you

I wished to set you free

But made you instead a monster

Now you feel me inside you

More than I would like

This flow of mine you sense

No hope left for you now, dear

I wish I could take it back

Only to have you back

But of this creature you have become

I can only be food.

Learn

Learn to fly away

You get to be free now

Learn to fight your way

You get to win now

Learn to make it your day

You get to breathe now

Learn to make joy and hay

You get to feel now

Learn to have your say

You get to speak now

Learn to see the sun rays

You get to play now

Learn to draw your pay

You get to earn now

Learn to kill and slay

You get to prey now.

The Sinner

One says it is prison

One says it is home

Not sure whom to listen

I shut myself alone

This confinement of mine peculiar

Like a double edged sword

One side to wound my enemy

The other on my throat

Just look at it and tell

You may have a different opinion

For its only human to differ

And see different views

I agree I cannot leave

But my arrival wasn’t forced

I chose here to stay

Without any hesitation

This room of four walls

Without any light breeding window

I lie on the floor and gaze

On the scratches at the ceiling above

These marks that clawed this cement

They send down my spine shivers

The cold floor spikes me

Its pain I have to bear

For Lord I have sinned

And fed on the blood of my dears

I’ve slain people for pleasure

Taken lives just to amuse

I am no mythological creature

Just another ruined power craving human