Satisfaction

Was it you?

Was it you?

The one I needed?

The one I wanted?

The one I….

The dying moments of our love

Of this escapade

This poetry

That we created

This music

That we shouted

This writing

That we painted

Those dying moments

Showed me and you

Us…

Us…

The discarded petals

Of a fallen flower

The wasted drops

Of a vintage liquor

The trashed floor

Of a forgotten temple

It showed me

Showed us

Why were wrong

Why this was wrong

You were not my need

But a luxury

Not a desire

But a dream

For the moment I loved you

Was the moment my love died

And I stand here satisfied

But hollow on the inside.

It rises onto the skies

Falls deep into hell

Lingers on the surface a lot

And then again it rises

(Or does it fall once more)

Only to stop midway

Somewhere between the skies and earth

Where no good can ever may

Floating above the depths

Shrieking amidst the grey

A thunder of loudness bolts

And stops before you can face

And again it begins the ascent

(Or is it a decline, Oh pray)

To only fall back 

Somewhere in the interlude

Lost in the hush of surround

Only to begin a whisper

And soon into a sound

Like a baby it grows

Evolving into this mammal

As it guides it successor to pinnacles

It never could surmount

But you do not know that

You may never guess

For a symphony contains a million shouts

But only one that gets the applause.

Shame

Oh heaven you may fall

Into the pits of hell

But my sin would still be greater

Deeper than the oceans heart

Just look into my folly

And then you will feel

This disgrace I have earned

For eternity now my curse

Angels on this day will cry

The idols of god will bleed

For a future sun has fallen

Perhaps never to return again

The realm of my illusion

Today finally cut open

I see my meagre affinity

Towards the cosmic hub

I see now these black birds

To mock my soul they come

And howling my mistake out loud

In this infinite suffering am shut

My head bleeds out of ache

The beating of my heart abrupt

For I cannot bear this failure

It only cuts me up

Nothing will ever ease

This is forever going to last

A lesson very painful to learn

Makes my eyes red and numb