Shame

Oh heaven you may fall

Into the pits of hell

But my sin would still be greater

Deeper than the oceans heart

Just look into my folly

And then you will feel

This disgrace I have earned

For eternity now my curse

Angels on this day will cry

The idols of god will bleed

For a future sun has fallen

Perhaps never to return again

The realm of my illusion

Today finally cut open

I see my meagre affinity

Towards the cosmic hub

I see now these black birds

To mock my soul they come

And howling my mistake out loud

In this infinite suffering am shut

My head bleeds out of ache

The beating of my heart abrupt

For I cannot bear this failure

It only cuts me up

Nothing will ever ease

This is forever going to last

A lesson very painful to learn

Makes my eyes red and numb

VOICES

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I can hear this noise
Floating in the air
Like a whisper of the unknown
It middles in my thoughts
Shouting at my peace

Staring at my joy
Envying my hatred
Justifying my fight
Of what this is a curse
Or maybe just a boon
I have no idea
Nor any clue
Only that I feel it
Deep down in my soul
Favoured by my thoughts
Yet opposed by my idea
It’s humming on its own
Like a cracker when it bursts
It explodes into a scream
Only to be nulled
By my very own vision
In see it in my eyes
Staring back at me
How I wish this was a lie
And only a dream in my sleep
But nay, the voice croons
It dares me to listen
For its only disturbing to envision
But death when I listen

Conversion

Hovering over my dead body

I see you dancing to no tune

What death means to you

I could never think

You stare into my eyes

I have no expression to return

This stoppage pains me

I wish to float with you

Just like a lie can cut

I lie here so open

Without nothing to stop you

I am your poor minion

An empty space on this floor

I am no drug for you

Will you ever feel me once

I doubt this only dream

Yet you turned me into this

I just don’t see why this you’d do

Surrender to Hell

On this pedestal of death I stand

Searching for my end

No fear now left to live

The end is now my friend

I close my eyes and whisper

To the depths of highest orders

Smite me down you now must

Turn these muscles and bones to fodder

My eyes dried up off tears

Blood now it starts to weep

Not fear or pain the cause

Just something inside deep

How did I end up here

To what I owe this grief

To answer an eternity is less

The questions although so brief

I whisper once again

Hear me Oh’ lord of silence

Take me now your captive

Your prison my ultimate penance

…And finally I open my eyes

There he stands a mighty knight

Not different from what I’d dreamt

Yet such a strange sight

Kneel in front now I must

A warrior’s end I seek

He hasn’t moved an inch

Yet suddenly so far and bleak

Oh but what a fool I’ve been

The devil is a crooked player

My surrender brands me a coward

No longer he’ll heed my prayer

My existence ends up a waste

A lifelong struggle thrown away

I fought for hell so long

Now drown in heaven’s bay.

Literature

Writing is not about framing words, rather stringing thoughts you can't say in verbal

Retirement

This will be my one last fight

And then I’m gonna be history

I’ll try to reach all those heights

And then there is no victory

I will testify my greatness and might

And free from expectations I will be

Into the pie of victory I will bite

And then from a distance I’ll see

The torch of my rule I will light

And then in another hand it will be

All darkness I will turn bright

And then to pay I have no fee

I will chase away all my frights

And then scared no longer I will be

All loosen bonds I will now tight

And then away I will be

Just let me win my one last fight

And then from this life I will flee.

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I lay in the darkness

Waiting for the end

Praying to my lost god

Don’t help me one more time

I look to the skies, the oblivion high

The sun as usual shining bright

It’s like a mocking sign put up

To ridicule my miserable life

Always for the end I craved

Wished to die sooner than later

Now I hear my doom approaching

I reconsider, my thoughts I clear